Introducing Myself

Hello. Probably no one will ever read this blog but me, but it's a way for me to get my feelings out and not hurt anyone. Let's just call me an overstressed individual who has a lot going in her world and needs a place to vent. I'm a teenager trying to live in this adult world with troubles most teenagers couldn't even fathom! I have this rare disease called Intracranial Hypertension or most people know it as Pseudotumor Cerebri. Intracranial hypertension (IH), sometimes called by the older name pseudotumor cerebri (PTC), is a neurological disorder that is characterized by increased intracranial pressure (pressure around the brain. The main symptoms are headache, nausea, and vomiting, as well as pulsatile tinnitus (buzzing in the ears synchronous with the pulse), double vision and other visual symptoms. If untreated, it may lead to swelling of the optic disc in the eye, which can progress to vision loss. A lot to take huh? Yeah, that's been my life for about a year. No one knows what causes it and no one has a cure. The doctors think they have a cure with people who aren't stereotypical in todays society i.e people who aren't skinny. Now, I'm not your typical girl, I'm NOT skinny and I won't pretend to be. But I'm not huge either. But all the doctors see is a girl who's not 100 pounds soaking wet. So what's their cure? Just lose weight. Well, that's hard you see. Women they work, and work and work to lose the weight and they maybe will lose 5 pounds. A man? He might think of skipping a meal in his life and lose 10 pounds. So, it's hard, but with odds stacked against you like I do? Well it makes it almost impossible! So here I am working my butt off to lose weight and what happens? I stay in this stupid range of weight and won't go down at ALL! I also have a job and try to live as normal a life as I can, with being in the hospital ALL the TIME! So, what job could a teenager get and wouldn't get fired by all the times she's had to miss work? A nanny. I'm a nanny to three hoodlums...Achm three kids with problems I won't even begin with this post. You'll probably hear more about them as I vent out my frustrations in the form of this blog. My employers, well... one of my employers is really good about me being in the hospital all the time. So, I have this nanny job and it pays okay. Do I think I'm getting paid enough? Heck no! But its reasonable and I have a sense of normalcy in my life for now. So, this is my life, and now you know just some of my frustrations that would make me an overstressed individual.